Turning blind to the world outside just to focus on the inside

It's time I quit being the people pleaser, worrying about what people are going to judge, and prioritizing their emotions over yours. I guess it's time to turn blind, the world outside doesn't handle my life, it's in my hands.

It's time I take control of my life rather than resign it in the hands of predators. My feelings are valid to me. It's alright to be sensitive in this tough world, and let people advise you whatever they want, but if you truly wanna cry, cry it out. Crying doesn't convey you are powerless. 

Taking my own decisions can be hard, cause I constantly considered others over mine. I never prioritize my decisions, I guess now is the right time to take this decision. 

Taking advantage of me is easier, cause for me, regarding my sentiment over others' was difficult. Even when I realized I was being utilized I still gave in, cause I never knew, in this era, kindness meant misuse.

I would never want to give in to such a circumstance again.

It's a hard world to survive in, but anyway, you are here, you have to make it, one point I want is, to see myself go back to that girl who I used to be - a mystery, silence was her virtue, lost within books, writing poetry late nights, delighting in the company of the moon along with soft music in the background. I miss the vibe which I had within, restoring it is a complicated task, it is hard I know, but somehow I just don't wanna lose myself to the vultures around.

"Girl, just do it, don't just put these words down on paper, it'll be worth it." - hopefully I take my advice at least once.

~ Elaine Aby